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8/31/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 9:20 PM

hello moon and stars...can you accompany me thru the night?

i'm in a confused state and literally i dont know how to settled it. exam is just around the corner and there's some assignments i need to be done before exam and that's it school holiday. apart of that some personal problems yet to be done. i dont understand why i should face all this when i need some personal space and lacked behind. sometimes, i feels that im so useless and life is full of crap.how i wished i can just vanished and taa dah!!!disappear and i don't have to settled my own problems.
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!

did i make a wrong move?to settle down with you? i tod you would giving me happiness and cheer me up when i'm down. i dont see you when you just around. i dont feel secured, comfortable and as a friend to talked to.i dont know who should i turn to? i dont get it. what's wrong with us?what's wrong with me.am i too stressed and i dont feels your presence?i hate it so much when i feels this way. i just need somebody.someone always there for me not as in beside me always.i just need comforting,supporting and motivation to keep me moving. you lead and i followed.when i lead i aspects someone behind me giving me confidence to walk through. what should i do?where's the feelings that i felt you can brighten up my day at the first time?

and to someone thought i chose him and the way he treat me not like good as yours in the past, I'm sorry i can't leave him. i dont mind if he cant show me happiness.i dont belong to anyone, you or him but i belong to myself and i believed i can makes myself happy without any help with anyone else.if you want to see me happy just prayed for my happiness and health. problems can makes someone to become wise.

should i make a new move again and left everything behind me?i want to cry and i want to let everything out to let veryone know BUT i just can't.i need a hug and i need a comfort and i need everything to satisfying me just to makes me feel better but its not my time yet. nevertheless i'm still keeping going on stronger and stronger. and even wisely and love stills lingers around.anyone bother to spare some hug and a shoulder to cry on?and to makes me happy?

Labels: I've stretched myself beyond my means, The consequences that I've rendered

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 4:29 PM

i met Ijal today and alhamdullilah the met up turn so well. and really its hurt so much whenever i see him.full of guilts and sympathy but at the same time its teaches him a lesson to realized "we are not anymore" and i wont turn back again thought u make a promised to changed.

i cried when he makes me listened to his mp3 and he sing as well.Argh!!! i feels so bad and im sorry that i've moved on.

Oh teratai bunga indah
Engkaulah pujaan hatiku
Telah lama aku rindukan
Wahai teratai bunga indah

Sungguh cantik wajahmu
Sinar matamu bagaikan suria pagi
Setiap insan selalu terpikat
Memandang teratai bunga indah

Ku tak menyangka
Wahai terataiku sayang
Badai taufan mendatang
Menghembus dirimu
Engkau pun terkulai
Dan merunduklah layu
Tak berseri lagi

Oh tolong, lindungilah dia
Agar ku dapat bersamanya lagi
Ku inginkan terataiku sayang
Berseri seperti semula
Teratai bunga indah

8/30/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 11:31 AM

let's play with the rain with me...

break time and here i am blogging in the student hub.

what should i do next?

8/27/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 11:07 PM

all i wanted is a comfort

8/26/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 11:23 PM

when i fall, will you be the one carry me up? please show me the bright side...

having dinner at billy bombers,tampines. and why must everytime we went out there must be something that's not right between us.either you or me will hurt by each sentences we say and easy to say it doesnt bring any happiness or smile on our face. dinner was really great but it was a silent conversation thru the whole journey till we got home.

im so tired. bloody tired. let me get some rest and please leave me alone.

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 2:17 PM

Mr sunshine's where are you?

i'm getting so confused and its getting so complicated.i dont understand what im looking for in my life now.i felt so un-secured and so whatever shit..i've been soul searching till now i dont get the answer.let's put this aside.

apart of that, i would like to thanks to you guys, "Thanks so much, make up my day" and makes me outcast. hahaha...anyway, i loves the rain and the nature life and i love you guys. can let me hug both of you? and you guys hug me when im down and put a smile on my face?

8/18/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 1:40 PM

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 1:17 PM

hello, good afternoon to windy and the rain.
having a good sleep with this kind of weather.dont you?

8/17/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 8:10 PM

i'va done about 70% of project. and now, ive to go to do revision with my study group and so long goodbye.

and btw, congrats to abg2 body builder.

8/14/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 10:15 PM

ouh, i loves the weather today, windy!

nothing much to elaborate here. reached home early unlike usually days after school. had enough of rest and i'm having a good dreams. yes, indeed and how i wished i can be in that dream forever and come true.

tonight,i'm not happy and still you giving me hard time again. let's bygones be bygones. no used telling me this. hurt makes me think wisely and maturely.

im still waiting for that shooting stars to bring me happiness.

8/07/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 8:26 PM

the sunny day, does'nt shine on me.

school as usual but today's s/w was really fun.

i've been not happy lately and i confide myself not get distracted by it. i felt so lethargy and fcuking restless. i really dont know why, why this happened to me again. it's really true, when you are alone,there's sort of thing trying to makes you feels unhappy and feeling guilts cover you. eating ice cream can makes me feels better but after that the craved for ice cream even more.

apart of that, today's my most embarrassing moments i ever had again.twice! sleeping on someone shoulder until i reached woodland's interchange and awaken by this guy. damned! how paisey it is,and how kachong i was when i woke up its only us. fucked! how shamed i am and how i wished i can be invisible and rewind the time.urgh! please dont makes me crossed my path with that guy again.i dont want he think i was trying to flirt with him or whatsoever ppl think about me. GRRRRR...

8/06/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 10:08 PM

something bothering me. and i think i've hurt someone badly and now that someone don't want to talk to me. serious, i am so worried about you. please, forgive me?..

i don't enjoyed much today. school is like per normal nothing great to share about. but someone been distracting my attention and im kind of moody mood today.ouh, please, what i've done wrong again?tell me if you not happy about me.

of all of that, i met my ex secondary schoolmate. damned!i missed her so badly. and apart of the day today i felt quite happy meeting her and 3yrs down the road, she's getting married and how happy when i heard that.most my friends settled down with 2 to 3 kiddo and when my turn?

no special ones and the one who really can makes me happy down the road forever.

8/05/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 2:04 PM

ohh, i loves the weather.

i cant imagined or crossed my mind if one day or something happen that's not my will giving an abortion.you know i cant imagine how can i go thru with a life like that. facing my parents and ppl thought's.and how my friends had gone thru by their ownself with their own strength without a husband or a responsible bf's. please, god bless them.*amin. oh, please...i dont want to think about this.its sank my heart..

yesterday, i was like a mad madness day for me. its like my first time shouting through the phone when my mom is around.and how i cant control my anger and my nerve nearly like torn. i was so bloody pissed and really2 frustrated and there's no more patients for this person. i really hate it when you really makes me sad and testing my patients. cut it short,we settled everything out that yesterday night and im really sorry for giving you a punch and i think its deserved you. hahaha..and thanks for chubby who enlighten my day.

next month mr care started to serve his N.S. ouh, i will do misses you if you not around.

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 1:54 PM

dont you think it is so cruel tortured this innocent babies?

Labels: i really hope i wont crossed this path in my life.

8/01/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 11:23 PM

the hot damned sunny weather, that is how I FEELS INSIDE ME.!

i'm beat out.blardy tired and bloody pissed off. somebody been trying to used me. Ouh, what the f**k,i wont buy any words of yours anymore and you better save it and get out of my life. go and sell those words to someone else...

for your info, i wont entertain a big f**ck liar's.! *shoooo, you go!

twinkle,twinkle lil star's,how i wonder whats you are.