9/29/2007
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
3:10 PM
ok.let me be this way if that makes your ignorance feels better to you. don't bother to ask me why because im doing this for our own fucking good.
9/28/2007
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
4:15 PM
i felt that we are drifting apart, dear. Don't you think so?
9/27/2007
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
5:31 PM
To whom it may concern. The truth was the last thing I wanted to hear from you. It hits me real hard. I'm sorry if you've felt that way all along. I have my own reasons which you might understand one day. You're a diamond, and I don't have what it takes to preserve the diamond for a long period of time. I myself need self preservation. On the other note, goodluck in moving on. It is very much a classic love story. and i really really missed you so much and i missed everything you showered me with Love and tender care and yah every priceless gifts. oh god,!
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
5:31 PM
hello cheri world..
Something different for everything. My brain hasn't been functioning these few days, that explains the long absence. I've been wasted. Not taking the oppurtunities during the holidays well, I supposed. I've been thinking alot lately and I hate it especially when old memories revisits the mind and hits the nerve that connects to the heart. Rather heart wrenching. Fundamentally.
Something different for everything. It hits me rather hard. Maybe a step to self discovery? I've always loved self discovery and I've reached a point where I know what i love most which is photography. But I am pretty sure that there is more to it. Burried deep down.
Something different for everything. Gots me wonder.. what could it be?
It took me sometime to fall asleep yesterday. wandering around and look up at the ceiling and the mind is running and i don't know what i was thinking and what makes me wonder. but i love this moment when i cant discovered what i really want in life. and tell you what? i think something will change in my life sooner or later and this might hurt someone or anyone because i'm still searching my true self and what i want in this short life. who does'nt want to live to the fullest and achieve what you want in life..and most important is the "HAPPINESS".
9/14/2007
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
1:47 PM
its windy!!!
i felt so dissapointed and betrayal by someone i trusted so much. i don't get it why its hard for you speaking the truth?why still there's a lies in you?why must there misunderstanding between us and why must we quarrel every single matters. what you take for?taking granted my sincerity?
ok, i had enough of this. its too much for me to accept it and to you give in. over and over again. do whatever you want and stop pestering me. i shall not showing care and concern towards you because you doesnt know to appreciates me. and stop asking to trust you. please leave me alone. and i dont think its my fault or to get blamed by you. cus i know ive tried my best.and what i get in return? goodbye.
9/11/2007
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
8:23 PM
i thought i was leading in a happy life. i thought i could be happy. i thought i laugh out loud and cry in happiness. but all the thought it just hallucination, illusion. i was wrong with my thoughts!
Damn it!!!
Why must you ruined everything. why must you still around me. why must i felt guilts on us. why still lingers around me. why you there, everywhere and how am i going to forget you. how am i to makes you hates me so much. i feel so weak very weak. i need someone to forget you. why must the past still haunting me. urgh! STOP ALL THIS!
to someone who part of life:
i really hope you could understand. i really want you to makes me forget everything and cheer me up and as if i only got you in part of my life. im trying my best to forgets all this. this pain gains me stronger everyday without failed.
9/05/2007
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
11:31 PM
hello, beautiful night. how i wonder i can have you everynight?..
i'm think i in my own world.i do my own stuff alone and i settled everything by myself and i feels like ppl dont need me anymore. i feels like in the past. by my ownself again. damned it, i hate this feelings and its hurt when being this way. i just wanted to run from all this problems, all i just wanted to free of all this and all i wanted is to be happy again. HAPPINESS...
school was ok but boring and went home all alone but i feels peace in the bedok library. its like my first time going out all alone in far away from my home.this is the first time, i feels like this is strength and courage going all by myself when companion.
meeting izzat is like last minutes meeting up. and i know i know, i always "bubble" you but you have to understand lah if i bubbles means that im tired and oink oink all the way till morning. thanks for the night and sharing me all your stories and ur thought's. i feels abit comfort and happy. i got a secret, "i missed your smells"..hah haha...eh, i really missed those days,those when im brokedown and you accompany me and cheering me up and listened to all my rubbish. to esplanade and taking bus together and i slept on your shoulder without realising it. and i know, i ni tido buruk kan mcm oink2 kan and ape lagi eh, i ni giler kan.
can i run from all this?
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
5:59 PM
