im sorry if my entry hurt you or offence you somehow. i need to let everything out from my chest. as you know i'm afraid of you and tell you this face to face. and we didnt have the right time to share how we both felt and we been busy with each other business. and we hardly met in a proper way.
seriously, i didnt put a high expectation from you because i know who you are, honey. i know its hard for you to show some awareness.i know you are very difficult to handle and i have to accept it.i accept you the way you are and thanks for saving my life.for showing appreciation i have to handle it by myself and im sorry if i didnt look you up or share you my problems because i dont wanna to involved you in. okay.
im still thinking what should i do next. stay put or move on?do you still need me around???