{ the mysteries of life;.

12/20/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 2:23 PM

i treasured every friendship,very moments we had, mementos and everything. but what i've done wrong, what i do. if that you wanted so much, alright i'll try that. god, give me strength. urgh, i don't get it why you must do us this way.

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 1:58 PM

so cooling,bebey.

i think i've this misunderstand situation with someone mebe if my instinct are not wrong. everytime we chat or something we had this lil argument or we pin point each others or find my faults. i don't get it. how i want to moves on like others if some people pick a faults on me and blame me about the past and reminded me all over again. i want to forget all that. i just want some peace in my life a freedom and no blocking. damned it. i'm sucha loser. i'm sucha wasted. but i'm happy with how i carry myself and how i can think wisely and how my parents taught me. i'm blessed with everything i do in this life. i hope the pillar that give me strength won't fall off from me where i need a encouragement and motivation.

sometimes it hurt enough people saying a harsh words and personal stuff. and how people judge somebody saying an appropriate comments. everybody are not perfect and people do makes mistake in life. people deserved a second chance and they deserved to turn a new leaf.

it's hurt enough. very deeply hurt. crying no used. people won't just understand.
let them poking. *ouch.

12/18/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 7:16 PM

damned!
i sometimes don't really understand my ownself. i don't know what am i thinking or doing. it's f*cking frustrated when you know u sucha useless person.i don't know why i have this feeling sympathetic towards people especially someone who's hurt me still i give in everytime and i put all the past behind me. but This kind of people doesn't appreciate me and they somehow purposely or un-purposely hurt me. sometimes i felt that its not so fair and bad but still i cant see them in that kind of state asking for forgiveness. urgh!

school holiday started and i started to feel so farking bored here.oh, how i wished i wud be back to school again with a tremendous friends. i really miss the 3 guys. really but i don't know where each person doing right now. they all so busy. com'on dont leave me behind guys.

looking forward for new school shoes. how i wished everyday i get an allowance from my parents thou it school hols too. i need a job...

12/08/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 3:20 PM

its raining again,

hey, i don't feel good nowadays. i felt suck all the time. and today someone really try to test my anger and it so frustrated! if i have a magic power and i will screams as loud as i can to ears. i wanted you to know how irritating it is and how so frustrated i am right now. if i've the strength i just want to chop into pieces and lets the tiger eat ur meat. its not fun making me this way. its not blardy fun you get it!!!

i've many plans for today. and i don't know which to join to. and its blardy raining and its not fun going anywhere with wet clothes because i dont't want to bring any umbrella's. urgh!

12/03/2007

{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now 6:27 PM

heylo sunshine,

wow, how time flies and now is december. i'm having a great november and i really enjoyed everything. i really appreciate the day i went out with bestfriend and with other friends. laughing! they are like my laughing gas.

school holiday is just around the corner and i can't wait for that.and sweetheart i can't wait to spent time with you and i enjoyed every moments.

i can't wait to go phuket, insya'allah.