1/04/2008
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
6:08 PM
sometimes,i felt i need ijal here.sometimes, i felt i need him more than anyone. i felt he understands me more than anyone.he the only guys that i met who really being patient with me.sometimes,i felt shit all the time.i don't know why i feel this way. what's got into me now.i had someone.why, i can't just adapt with this person?why i had this negative thought and paranoid feelings.why, i can't just be cool.urgh! i feel blardy pissed.but i really2 need hafeez too.i can't have 2 at all times.and its not fair. i shud move on like right now. please look forward fauziah. please...
{ The smell of your skin lingers on me now
3:34 PM
its cloudy today.
hey,im watching the prince hour just to killed my boredom.and surprisingly they have eng sub title.if i know youtube have this korean mv's i would'nt ask bf to rent for me from his workplace.i can just watching it from youtube and they have eng sub unlike someone workplace.
i really2 feeling shit and bored right now. really!i can't wait for school reopen and miting up the crzy bunch of peeps at school.but i hope i don't have to heard or whatsoever comments or stories between me with bf in school.and i've to prepared myself for the worst and sooner or later they will know my status and that's was so not fun lah when people know i'm attched.i still want to have attention and get pampered by them but sadly bf have warning me to not go beyond his limit.damned it!i find him, like maknenek uh and then its hard for me to flirt ard.but i can do behind his back. hahaha.
hafeez having a lifesaving course today at school.i bet he having fun kissing while doing his cpr practical test.he sound so happy when he phone me.biaserlahhot stuff and he always surrounding with girls.but let him be lah, i really don't bother that much.lets the girls entertaining him so i dont have to layan him.i can take a rest.
Ijal in camp right now. i really pity him so much and i felt bad all the time when thinking about him and listened to his problems and how he feels everything. sometimes, i felt like giving him another chance but i know i can't do that.as a friend the only way to listened to his sorrowness. but i admit,i even cant forget him and sometimes i do missed him.he's the only one who really2 understand my characters and everything about me.he's the most generous,loving,caring guy i met in this world.who does not stingy and selfish with his money.i really hope he get a girl that loves him and not his money.
and now...i hope this is my happiness.
